So I have this friend from high school. Let’s call her K. I’ve known K for almost 10 years; she was my only real friend in high school, and we went through a lot together. We dealt with our first episodes of depression around the same time, but due to a bad experience with doctors and depression as a teenager, she’s hesitant to get real help. Now she’s suicidal and having a hard time hanging on. I feel helpless because we live multiple states away and can only be there on the phone or through text messages. I was terrified to stop texting her last night, and I’ve never been more relieved to get a phone call from someone first thing in the morning before.
This is my plea to the Tumblr-verse… I know what this pain feels like. When you don’t necessarily want to die, but it seems like the only way to end the pain. I’ve been there. I’ve (thankfully) lived through saying goodbye to my family because I had made my mind up to end it the next day. Call someone, if you’re feeling this way. Call a trusted friend or family member. Or the national crisis hotline: 1-800-273-8255. They are all over the country, there’s always someone there to talk to, and they can tell you where to go. Take their advice. If you’re afraid to call by yourself, get a friend on the line with you and conference the crisis center in; that’s what I did for K. If you (or someone you know) is in immediate danger, call 911.
And for the love of God, if you go to an emergency room because you’re suicidal and they don’t take it seriously or they react flippantly to you, DEMAND to speak to a hospital administrator or a manager IMMEDIATELY, because that is not okay.
Know that it CAN get better, than you ARE worth saving. Don’t give up. Keep trying. There is someone that can help you, I promise. Don’t. Give. Up.
If you can relate to what I’m going through with K… please pray that she will find the strength to keep fighting.